threads of thoughts only you could understand

you won't.i feel pressure.no.i'm still in denial.i haven't told my rents yet.still.tekken.sometimes, you just catch me when im unaware and i can't breathe.i can't breathe now.help me.still in denial.still.still.im imagining u kissing me.how great u look.how i know that we r meant 4 each other.you forgot.im seriously considering having a new life in manila.what about u?what about your canada plans?i miss porky.theres no spark of hapiness in my eyes anymore.every day im asking u this stupid question.ill never.i chose not to.ill keep you.here.id rather feel the pain.to somehow feel that i exist.id die if i know.you know.no closure for me.this is an open wound.your pics are still here in my cubicle,all piled up.never had the guts to put it down.just let me breathe.
please.