KERMIT=KISMET

"dai, ari tuo dai, para imuha jud na dai"
a random memorable phrase i've heard coming from the jeep's "barker" while i was inside a 62c jeep on my way to work. by the way, the "dai" is not me, it's a nursing student from UC.

that really got me thinking about kismet.fate.destiny... or "kermit", as what a good friend of mine once said. sometimes, the stars line up, the gods smile, and love gets a fighting chance. just a chance, that's all it can really hope for, no guarantees, no certainties.. just chance.

but then, i kinda don't like the fact that someone, or something way beyond me is controlling my fate or kermit or whatever. id like to note that whatever happens to my future, itll be because of the choices i made now, not because someone who's waaay beyond me decided to go "uh-oh, ill put a hex on her" or something shizznit like that.

Prolly ive been eating too much munggos from the carenderia outside.

no is just another opportunity, i don't believe in the word no.

which takes me to alot of workload here.

some people, by circumstance, have passed over their work to me. and i like it cause it makes my 9 hours go "wtf?! its already 5?!" and yes, i find it difficult to say no when people ask me to do something---> i hate letting people down, or even disappointing them.

I talked this over to a friend, and he told me that somehow, ive got to learn how to say NO. i have to get through life thinking about myself for a change. It's inevitable, i will hurt someone, unintentionally or not. so might as well deal with it.

and with me looking so stressed already, i am so gonna get a massage. thank you payroll master

someone once asked me

why i don't put any "intimate" details here in my blog. I could name a few reasons actually.

first off, to the selected (lucky ones) few, my life has always been an open book. my life, in general, has been a whirlwind of just about anything. Honestly, looking back, I never even felt a twinge of any remorse or regret to whatsoever things i've done (which, by the way, consists of more bad than good). and as much as i am loud, outspoken and liberated about alot of things, i choose to keep my private or "intimate" life poke-off. believe me, alot of people can be very judgemental about the way i live my life, and I ABSOLUTELY REFUSE to be judged here by some random people who don't even know me.too well.

another one, it's actually difficult to just open up for me. Either i'm just too lazy to tell some "hey-this-is-new" details of my life, or there are words actually start to run out from me when i go sentimental or deep (which is ironic, considering i'm a writer in --- -------)

else, i'm the ask-me-ill-try-to-answer-as-honestly-as-possible type of person. some moments of my life are deeply buried here (pointing to my head) and sometimes, i totally forget about them (especially the ones NOT worth remembering) UNLESS you ask me.

a post i copied from my cousin

you must be living in a cave or somewhere if you haven't heard or watched my sassy girl, but oh well.

Top 10 Things You Must Remeber:

1.) First, don't ask her to be feminine.
2.) Second, don't let her drink more than three glasses. She'll beat someone.
3.) At a cafe, drink coffee instead of coke or juice.
4.) If she hits you, act like it hurts.
5.) If it hurts, act like it doesn't.
6.) On your 100th day together, give her a rose during her class, she'll like it a lot.
7.) Make sure you learn fencing and squashing.
8.) Also, be prepared to go to prison sometimes, if she says she'll kill you, don't take it lightly, you'll feel better.
9.) If her feet hurts, exchange shoes with her
10.) Finally, she likes to write, encourage her..."-My Sassy Girl

not only on friday the 13th

but every friday. all throughout the year.

I think someone jinxed my fridays for me. For the past uhm, almost a hundred fridays, i've had fights, arguments, and just about anything "malas" you can think of during fridays. i can't help but think that someone, or something, is playing a joke on me.

today is friday, oh well, it's still too early to tell. so in retaliation to everything. i am wearing a fuschia (spell fuschia) pink skinny jeans. haha. Women and logic never went in together, but hey, cross your fingers for me even for just this friday will you? :)

thought of the day

if there's a god, why does he hold us to such unattainable standards? why does he demand goals we can never reach?

then run away

if you're smart don't mess with me. just go away.

i am kinda pissed. there's this girl who's been trying REALLY, and i mean, really hard to follow my style or wtv. i never had doubts with my instincts and im sure as hell im so not gonna doubt this girl is such a lifestyle doppleganger.

FYI. you are so not who you are. you can never afford "things" as much as i do so don't.even.bother.trying.
or prolly have your boyfriend buy your stuff for you, i mean, that's the only way you can afford your trips and splurges right?!

Befreien Sie Liebe

Vielen Dank. wegrennen wir nach Singapur zusammen. wir werden die ganzen Chancen schlagen.

*ssh*l*s II

Thank you to the ff. people:

1. Marlo Gestole- i am always *spotted. Thank you for the kafaye,mcdo and wats moments. hollaback at me soon will you? and no, i dont miss you at all. XD

2. Marco Schmeisser- My all-around-boy. My fetcher, blackberry fixer, hedgehog seller and whoever-i-want-you-to be,

3. Jeszha Joy Cutillar- my apple friend! it's kinda sad that we don't get to see each other THAT often,but we will always be best friends for life.LIFE..and prolly on our next lifetime. You make our ayala 3ps together so highschoolish (BEST) even though we are waaay over school already.

4. Adielle Bianca Galang- totally unexpected huh? We haven't talked for almost 3 years now, (i've been keeping track) but you taught me a lesson that i'll never forget. i should always choose my friends over my boyfriend. which, by the way, you never did. and look what happened to us now.

5. Thessa Gale Pabroa- another surprise from highschool. I almost always see her randomly and sometimes it makes me cringe inside looking at her all mature and beautiful.. (while i was left to be a soul midget for the rest of my life). who would've thought i'd have a close friend like her? She's the epitome of sophistication while i'm... well, yeah, you know what i am.

6. Honeyleen Estrada- a workmate. I will miss you. eventhough we are true to life vecinos.

7. Roy Coromina- another friend of ryan's. thank you for appreciating my cooking..eventhough it was by circumstance and not by choice.

8. Daryl Jan Yu- for making me feel human and inferior. Sometimes, it kinda gives me the jolt that i've been looking for.

~i think that's prolly it.

YOU! YOU'RE AN A**H*LE!

I'd like to thank the following people:

1. Ryan Salvador III- for buying me a new bikini, and for initiating the "Princess Campaign". He's calling me a princess now and buys me random stuff.

2. Kristoffer Aradillos- For letting me scam you. I know you read my blog and I want you to know that the price you paid for your USC blah blah was marked up by two thousand percent. yes, only a b.a major can analyze this.

3. Gian Carlo Duterte- for being our uber flexible money vault. He's a pig..secretly.

4. Raphael "insert second name here" Wilwayco- what a sexist friend.niggerfaggot.drunkard.bro raper. You made me learn alot of things and it's NEVER boring being with you *even though one of the least things you'd rather do in this world is be with me.

5. Lorraine Nichole Rosello- for being my confidante, my secret-keeper and my random times text mate.

6. Kim Segura- my soon to be lesbian girlfriend.haha! you drive my hormones wild.

--i'll update this later. my work awaits.