what's the rush?

When I was younger, I wanted to do things done by my teenagers like my older cousins and schoolmates. I wore clothes and shoes suited for grown-ups, particularly high-heeled sandals. I wanted to go to the mall and watch movies with my friends. I even tried to go shopping alone. But i can only do stuff like that when my parents are too tired to tell me off for rushing to grow up. They always tell me to enjoy my early years because when I grow up to be a teenager, I will not be able to enjoy the things only a child could do—playing with toys with new friends, being carefree, and doing anything I want without a thought about what's happening to the world. I did not believe them, of course, since I was too determined to be a teenager already so that I can lead my own life and decide for myself. My outlook was like that until I began my secondary education.
My perception changed when I came out of elementary. I do not actually know why, maybe it's because of the new environment and new people. So from the day that I grasped the idea of what I really wanted to wear and do, I began changing myself into someone who wants to stay a kid. I realize that being a teenager means a while lot more—more schoolwork, more house chores and more obligations. I know right from wrong, so there is no excuse for my incorrect actions. My style has changed as well. I have not even worn my high-heeled sandals lately; I now prefer wearing flip-flops. And although I enjoy shopping on my own, I still want a grown-up to come with me to pay for what I want.
However, when I think of all the things that I still have to do as a graduating student, a daughter and a friend, I suddenly want to be a five-year old again. I do not rush growing up into someone older anymore. With all the problems and obligations of an adult in the world, why would I? I know that someday, I will be a full-time adult, too, but at least, not today.